1 00:00:01,439 --> 00:00:03,360 We better stack the chairs, it's getting late. 2 00:00:03,580 --> 00:00:04,580 Help me out. 3 00:00:12,240 --> 00:00:13,600 You're never going to last there. 4 00:00:14,740 --> 00:00:15,880 Don't let them break the spirit. 5 00:00:17,060 --> 00:00:18,060 You're beautiful. 6 00:00:35,210 --> 00:00:40,150 When I was 16 years old, I had a calling to serve God I thought would last the 7 00:00:40,150 --> 00:00:41,150 rest of my life. 8 00:00:41,930 --> 00:00:43,290 My name is Mary Gilligan. 9 00:00:43,770 --> 00:00:44,770 This is my story. 10 00:01:04,910 --> 00:01:10,070 100 miles, 100 miles, 100 miles, 11 00:01:10,950 --> 00:01:12,390 100 miles. 12 00:01:12,690 --> 00:01:16,930 You can hear the whistle blow. 13 00:02:49,900 --> 00:02:50,698 you put names in. 14 00:02:50,700 --> 00:02:51,700 Welcome, 15 00:02:59,680 --> 00:03:00,680 Amy. 16 00:03:00,720 --> 00:03:01,720 Hi, 17 00:03:01,940 --> 00:03:03,320 Pat. 18 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:05,260 Hi, Andy. How are you? 19 00:03:05,780 --> 00:03:06,780 Hi, Aunt Agnes. 20 00:03:07,900 --> 00:03:08,900 Sister Agnes. 21 00:03:10,400 --> 00:03:15,920 Welcome to the novitiate, Mary. This is Sister Miriam Rose. She's been assigned 22 00:03:15,920 --> 00:03:16,980 to be your guardian angel. 23 00:03:17,820 --> 00:03:19,420 Sister, welcome. 24 00:03:20,650 --> 00:03:21,990 We'll take care of your trunk. 25 00:03:22,690 --> 00:03:23,369 I'll help. 26 00:03:23,370 --> 00:03:25,290 It's best if we take over from here. 27 00:03:26,530 --> 00:03:27,530 Yes, of course. 28 00:03:28,530 --> 00:03:30,610 You can say goodbye here or in the parlor. 29 00:03:34,010 --> 00:03:35,010 Here. 30 00:03:36,590 --> 00:03:40,110 Well, I left my bike for you. It's yours if you want it. 31 00:03:53,900 --> 00:03:54,900 Goodbye, Toots. 32 00:03:56,020 --> 00:03:57,020 I'll miss you. 33 00:03:57,100 --> 00:03:58,100 Bye, Daddy. 34 00:04:05,100 --> 00:04:08,260 Well, I left you all my dresses and the cardigan you love so much. 35 00:04:09,680 --> 00:04:12,880 And we are... Just we were starting to be friends. 36 00:04:19,740 --> 00:04:21,120 Oh, I forgot. 37 00:04:25,290 --> 00:04:28,770 Grandma's rosary, I... They won't allow it. 38 00:04:29,550 --> 00:04:30,550 Oh. 39 00:04:31,550 --> 00:04:32,690 I'll keep it for you. 40 00:04:47,370 --> 00:04:49,110 She's in your hands now. 41 00:04:50,090 --> 00:04:51,390 She's in God's hands. 42 00:04:59,270 --> 00:05:01,230 Is it true she can't come home until someone dies? 43 00:05:01,930 --> 00:05:02,930 That's enough. 44 00:05:03,390 --> 00:05:04,390 Is it true? 45 00:05:05,570 --> 00:05:07,130 Come on, everyone. Let's go home. 46 00:05:13,190 --> 00:05:13,630 When 47 00:05:13,630 --> 00:05:20,630 we enter 48 00:05:20,630 --> 00:05:22,730 the novitiate, we leave our phone room. 49 00:05:31,880 --> 00:05:35,940 At night, your spread should be folded in threes, and it should always hang 50 00:05:35,940 --> 00:05:38,200 exactly five inches from the floor. 51 00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:45,580 Now, each morning, all the curtains should be open fully, and you must never 52 00:05:45,580 --> 00:05:47,680 enter the cubicle during the day without permission. 53 00:05:48,440 --> 00:05:51,020 Okay. You must never sit at the edge of the bed. 54 00:05:51,720 --> 00:05:52,720 I'm sorry. 55 00:05:53,600 --> 00:05:56,360 Tomorrow, your formal training will begin under the guidance of Sister 56 00:05:56,360 --> 00:05:57,360 Carmelita. 57 00:05:57,620 --> 00:06:00,560 I will leave you now, and you will put on the garb of the postulant. 58 00:06:01,160 --> 00:06:02,920 The bell will announce the afternoon prayers. 59 00:06:03,180 --> 00:06:06,180 And as you know, the bell is the voice of God. 60 00:06:12,260 --> 00:06:19,060 Oh, most gracious Mary, forgive my failures and bless this first step 61 00:06:19,060 --> 00:06:20,060 your son. 62 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:45,520 On two cubicles down, we can sneak out in time. You haven't changed a bit. 63 00:06:50,620 --> 00:06:54,260 You have answered Christ's call. 64 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:58,320 Like him, you must die. 65 00:06:59,440 --> 00:07:03,720 On his altar, you lay the life you might have lived. 66 00:07:04,920 --> 00:07:10,160 You have left all things to begin to live in the spirit of the vows. 67 00:07:11,020 --> 00:07:16,120 You will observe profound silence from the end of recreation at night until 68 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:17,640 after breakfast in the morning. 69 00:07:18,120 --> 00:07:22,660 You will be taking many classes with the regular college students. 70 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:29,680 It goes without saying that since you are no longer of that world, there will 71 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:33,180 no intercourse between you and the secular students. 72 00:07:35,880 --> 00:07:38,340 I'm going out. Hit me, hit me. 73 00:07:50,730 --> 00:07:54,650 Don't you wish we'd gone to a regular high school with dances and boys? We 74 00:07:54,650 --> 00:07:55,650 that world behind. 75 00:07:56,270 --> 00:07:57,630 We never even dated. 76 00:07:57,850 --> 00:07:59,550 We couldn't. You know they really didn't want us to. 77 00:08:00,150 --> 00:08:05,250 The temptation is going to kill me. Don't look. 78 00:08:08,680 --> 00:08:13,600 I've checked your recreation list, and you're spending too much time with each 79 00:08:13,600 --> 00:08:14,600 other. 80 00:08:14,620 --> 00:08:18,940 A good nun loves others as God loves, impersonally. 81 00:08:20,560 --> 00:08:23,680 Particular friendships destroy community. 82 00:08:24,420 --> 00:08:25,880 Yes, sister. Yes, sister. 83 00:08:26,620 --> 00:08:29,120 These are examen beads. 84 00:08:29,840 --> 00:08:35,400 They will enable you to keep a record of your faults each time you fail. 85 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:38,740 you will move one to the other side. 86 00:08:40,419 --> 00:08:46,060 For now, as a discipline, you will take a meal kneeling. 87 00:08:49,200 --> 00:08:50,280 Thank you, sister. 88 00:08:50,580 --> 00:08:51,580 Thank you, sister. 89 00:08:53,620 --> 00:08:59,560 It is a very great thing to be settled in obedience, to live under a superior 90 00:08:59,560 --> 00:09:01,780 and not be one's own master. 91 00:09:03,220 --> 00:09:08,960 If God is amongst us, We must need sometimes to give up our own opinion 92 00:09:08,960 --> 00:09:11,840 for the blessing of truth. 93 00:09:26,480 --> 00:09:30,280 Through those first few months, I'd feared I'd never learn discipline. 94 00:09:31,760 --> 00:09:36,860 But with denial and obedience, I finally began to conquer my own will. 95 00:09:37,840 --> 00:09:43,880 We are approaching the day you've been working for, when you will become 96 00:09:43,880 --> 00:09:44,880 novices. 97 00:09:45,480 --> 00:09:50,660 All your thought should be about the wedding to come, when you will pledge to 98 00:09:50,660 --> 00:09:54,440 Christ a life of service and self -abnegation. 99 00:10:02,760 --> 00:10:04,480 I can't believe I'll be one of you at last. 100 00:10:06,260 --> 00:10:08,860 When I came here a year ago, it seemed like only a dream. 101 00:10:09,680 --> 00:10:10,960 You've done very well. 102 00:10:11,440 --> 00:10:12,500 I'm proud of you. 103 00:10:14,720 --> 00:10:15,820 All these dresses. 104 00:10:16,400 --> 00:10:18,400 And the sisters who wore them before me. 105 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:20,720 I wish I had seen you. 106 00:10:21,360 --> 00:10:23,620 Did you know I was received in your mother's wedding dress? 107 00:10:24,640 --> 00:10:26,360 It must have meant so much to her. 108 00:10:27,500 --> 00:10:28,500 I wanted it to. 109 00:10:29,300 --> 00:10:30,500 If we found it... 110 00:10:30,730 --> 00:10:32,550 Then I could wear it too, all three of us. 111 00:10:32,790 --> 00:10:35,830 I thought you might feel that way, so I started looking for it. 112 00:10:38,310 --> 00:10:39,310 It's a little worn. 113 00:10:40,670 --> 00:10:41,830 Oh, Gord. 114 00:10:44,230 --> 00:10:45,230 It'll look beautiful. 115 00:11:39,500 --> 00:11:43,900 When the celebration was over, we still had one final act of sacrifice. 116 00:12:54,990 --> 00:12:55,990 What are you doing? 117 00:12:56,830 --> 00:12:58,730 You've come this far. You can't quit now. 118 00:13:00,530 --> 00:13:02,110 They wouldn't let me say goodbye to you. 119 00:13:02,510 --> 00:13:04,750 They made me and my folks wait till night to leave. 120 00:13:05,630 --> 00:13:06,630 They're outside. 121 00:13:07,130 --> 00:13:11,430 Bonnie, how can you be doing this? Because when I saw those scissors, it 122 00:13:11,430 --> 00:13:13,630 real to me. This place is cutting off my life. 123 00:13:14,210 --> 00:13:18,670 Don't go. You can't leave. If I don't get out of here, I'll begin to hate, not 124 00:13:18,670 --> 00:13:21,010 love. Don't you see we're being tested? 125 00:13:21,290 --> 00:13:22,550 They're smothering us. 126 00:13:23,130 --> 00:13:27,610 Only the stubborn, worldly part. No, the joyful, life -giving part. 127 00:13:31,950 --> 00:13:33,850 Then you're breaking profound silence. 128 00:14:00,560 --> 00:14:01,560 Please don't desert me now. 129 00:14:16,320 --> 00:14:17,480 Good afternoon, sisters. 130 00:14:17,920 --> 00:14:18,980 Good afternoon, sister. 131 00:14:19,500 --> 00:14:22,680 I know you're all anxious to hear how Vatican II will affect us. 132 00:14:23,940 --> 00:14:26,900 Pope John XXIII called for a religious renewal. 133 00:14:27,690 --> 00:14:31,090 All orders will reassess and change according to their own traditions. 134 00:14:32,170 --> 00:14:36,090 It's as if all the windows and doors have been opened and a fresh wind is 135 00:14:36,090 --> 00:14:37,090 blowing through the church. 136 00:14:37,550 --> 00:14:39,970 Our laws will change, our habits. 137 00:14:40,450 --> 00:14:43,310 We'll come out from behind our walls and into the modern world. 138 00:14:44,510 --> 00:14:47,250 And you young nuns are the vanguard of the future. 139 00:14:48,510 --> 00:14:51,210 We don't have to be afraid to let our friendships nourish us. 140 00:14:51,730 --> 00:14:54,770 We'll have study groups and bring our feelings out into the open. 141 00:14:56,240 --> 00:14:57,880 We have a lot ahead of us. 142 00:15:00,380 --> 00:15:01,760 So who are we going to be meeting? 143 00:15:02,500 --> 00:15:04,440 Father Timothy. He runs the center. 144 00:15:07,120 --> 00:15:09,480 I almost wish Vatican II would have left us alone. 145 00:15:10,540 --> 00:15:13,100 But it hasn't. We're going to be coming here every Saturday. 146 00:16:00,240 --> 00:16:01,240 Oh, my goodness. 147 00:16:02,000 --> 00:16:03,000 Hey, hey, hey, Trevor. 148 00:16:03,160 --> 00:16:04,160 What did I say about running? 149 00:16:04,400 --> 00:16:05,440 Don't. That's what I said. 150 00:16:06,300 --> 00:16:08,620 You see, it's a little bit crazy around here. We're still getting set up. 151 00:16:09,840 --> 00:16:10,599 Tell you what. 152 00:16:10,600 --> 00:16:12,020 Grab a kid and you'll learn about the program. 153 00:16:38,570 --> 00:16:39,570 Mary DePaul. 154 00:16:42,490 --> 00:16:45,710 Well, you know, this is a very attractive thing you got going here. 155 00:16:45,710 --> 00:16:46,810 you put a lot of work into it. 156 00:16:50,570 --> 00:16:51,570 Listen, you hungry? 157 00:16:53,290 --> 00:16:54,290 I know I am. 158 00:16:54,630 --> 00:16:55,409 Me too. 159 00:16:55,410 --> 00:16:57,230 Yeah? Where do you get some food around here? 160 00:16:57,570 --> 00:16:58,570 Over there. 161 00:16:58,710 --> 00:16:59,669 Want to join me? 162 00:16:59,670 --> 00:17:00,670 Yes. Good. 163 00:17:01,310 --> 00:17:04,069 At Washburn, I saw the beginnings of what I could accomplish. 164 00:17:05,069 --> 00:17:10,089 But first I would take the vows that signify the end of my training and my 165 00:17:10,089 --> 00:17:11,369 readiness to go out on mission. 166 00:17:21,589 --> 00:17:28,290 I ask to be permitted to profess my vows of poverty, chastity, 167 00:17:28,329 --> 00:17:32,850 and obedience as a sister of blessing for three years. 168 00:17:41,040 --> 00:17:42,060 I was assigned to St. 169 00:17:42,340 --> 00:17:47,500 Josephina's, a teaching convent across town, where the fresh winds of Vatican 170 00:17:47,500 --> 00:17:49,240 hadn't yet rattled the windows. 171 00:17:50,540 --> 00:17:53,380 Sometimes I think I was born with two left hands. 172 00:17:54,940 --> 00:17:56,260 Hello, sisters. 173 00:17:56,540 --> 00:17:59,640 I brought you all some ice cream. Thank you, Father. 174 00:18:00,060 --> 00:18:01,060 I'll go get the dishes. 175 00:18:01,680 --> 00:18:04,440 Perhaps Father Meyer would like a beer. 176 00:18:04,960 --> 00:18:08,320 We were just discussing the building fund. 177 00:18:08,580 --> 00:18:10,220 We must instill pride in the parishioners. 178 00:18:10,860 --> 00:18:11,860 Sister, may I be excused? 179 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:15,540 Sister, Mary DePaul does volunteer work at Washburn. 180 00:18:15,780 --> 00:18:16,780 Yes, so I understand. 181 00:18:17,320 --> 00:18:18,219 Good work, Sister. 182 00:18:18,220 --> 00:18:19,220 Thank you, Father. 183 00:18:21,840 --> 00:18:24,320 Volunteer work has its place, but not at the expense of the teacher. 184 00:18:24,820 --> 00:18:25,940 Absolutely not, Father. 185 00:18:47,340 --> 00:18:48,900 be in the grass if I don't have green? 186 00:18:50,180 --> 00:18:51,180 Well, we can make some. 187 00:18:51,460 --> 00:18:52,540 Come on, I'll show you. It's magic. 188 00:18:52,860 --> 00:18:54,180 Okay, everybody, come on around. 189 00:18:54,440 --> 00:18:57,820 Come around. I'll show you how to mix colors so you can make any color you 190 00:18:58,580 --> 00:19:00,120 I'm going to make green, okay? 191 00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:03,260 Why don't you tell me what some colors make you feel? 192 00:19:03,520 --> 00:19:04,820 I haven't got one idea. 193 00:19:05,020 --> 00:19:06,620 No? What about you, James? 194 00:19:06,980 --> 00:19:11,140 Well, bright colors make me feel happy. Oh, that's nice. That's really nice. 195 00:19:11,280 --> 00:19:12,280 Anybody else? 196 00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:20,240 I'm wearing black. Does that make me scary? 197 00:19:20,680 --> 00:19:24,000 Yeah. How come none of us can't wear yellow? 198 00:19:26,240 --> 00:19:28,460 You know, I'm going to have to think about that one. Okay. 199 00:19:29,420 --> 00:19:30,359 There you go. 200 00:19:30,360 --> 00:19:31,440 You can have green now. 201 00:20:02,080 --> 00:20:03,300 You think you can come? 202 00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:08,600 Well, Mike, my teaching schedule, I'll have to ask permission. 203 00:20:11,140 --> 00:20:12,320 When did you enter the convent? 204 00:20:15,340 --> 00:20:17,700 Oh, yes, I know. You're not supposed to talk about yourself. 205 00:20:19,400 --> 00:20:20,400 Especially to a man. 206 00:20:21,840 --> 00:20:25,180 I entered the convent prep school at 14, and then I went straight into the 207 00:20:25,180 --> 00:20:29,800 novitiate. Ooh, they got you, didn't they? Oh, those pretty nuns, they come 208 00:20:29,800 --> 00:20:30,800 the elementary school? 209 00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:33,360 Their pictures of brides and their stories of glory. 210 00:20:35,820 --> 00:20:36,820 Well, it's okay. 211 00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:39,400 That's how they got me. 212 00:20:40,860 --> 00:20:44,080 Yeah, I was going to dare to be different than the other guys. 213 00:20:45,120 --> 00:20:47,640 I was going to change the world, make it a better place. 214 00:20:48,380 --> 00:20:49,380 And you know what? 215 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:50,800 We are. 216 00:20:51,360 --> 00:20:52,880 And this is just the beginning. 217 00:21:13,570 --> 00:21:15,870 Why does suffering prove to God that you love him? 218 00:21:17,190 --> 00:21:18,710 I don't know. 219 00:21:20,010 --> 00:21:21,650 Can't you love God and still be happy? 220 00:21:23,490 --> 00:21:26,130 Clara thinks if she's happy, she'd better hide behind a tree. 221 00:21:26,710 --> 00:21:28,170 So we won't strike her dead. 222 00:21:28,610 --> 00:21:29,610 We do not. 223 00:21:32,370 --> 00:21:34,750 This is very important, so we will continue it later. 224 00:21:35,530 --> 00:21:36,530 Think about... 225 00:21:37,210 --> 00:21:41,810 reversing all your ideas about suffering and substitute them with all your ideas 226 00:21:41,810 --> 00:21:42,810 about joy. 227 00:21:49,170 --> 00:21:50,170 What was this? 228 00:21:59,020 --> 00:22:02,060 I've been reading about some of the new ideas and sharing them with my students. 229 00:22:02,140 --> 00:22:05,240 You were hired to teach basic Catholic dogma, not to expound... The kids get 230 00:22:05,240 --> 00:22:07,940 bored with just dry dogma or just memorizing. 231 00:22:08,220 --> 00:22:11,300 This way, they get excited and they begin to think for themselves. 232 00:22:11,820 --> 00:22:13,600 The Church and the Pope will let them know what to think. 233 00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:18,020 You do your job and teach that. But Vatican II says... I don't need you to 234 00:22:18,020 --> 00:22:19,320 me the significance of Vatican II. 235 00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:23,120 Parents send their children here so we can knock some sense into them. 236 00:22:23,620 --> 00:22:25,000 But, Father, it's not working. 237 00:22:25,580 --> 00:22:28,020 They stop going to confession. They stop going to church. 238 00:22:28,220 --> 00:22:29,660 I suggest you forget about theology. 239 00:22:30,100 --> 00:22:31,100 Leave that to the priest. 240 00:22:32,940 --> 00:22:37,020 You just say your prayers and meditate on Our Lady. She'll teach you all you 241 00:22:37,020 --> 00:22:38,020 need to know. 242 00:22:39,800 --> 00:22:43,620 I will speak with Sister Daniel -Ann and suggest that you not be allowed to go 243 00:22:43,620 --> 00:22:44,620 on the washroom. 244 00:23:08,360 --> 00:23:10,000 Daryl thinks none should wear yellow. 245 00:23:10,260 --> 00:23:11,260 Yeah. 246 00:23:11,540 --> 00:23:12,540 Color of sunlight. 247 00:23:15,060 --> 00:23:16,340 I'm going back to New York soon. 248 00:23:18,420 --> 00:23:19,420 What about the center? 249 00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:20,740 I'd like you to take it over. 250 00:23:27,420 --> 00:23:32,240 Why me? 251 00:23:33,700 --> 00:23:35,080 I've been thinking about it for a while. 252 00:23:35,760 --> 00:23:38,720 The kids all trust you and the parents all like you. 253 00:23:41,940 --> 00:23:44,340 I don't know if I can handle all this alone. 254 00:23:45,400 --> 00:23:46,460 Well, you won't be alone. 255 00:23:47,280 --> 00:23:49,440 You know most of the people and you've worked with them all. 256 00:23:50,200 --> 00:23:51,200 They'll all help. 257 00:23:54,260 --> 00:23:55,780 I'll talk to Sister Agnes. 258 00:23:57,660 --> 00:23:59,600 We're going to have a community meeting in a couple of weeks. 259 00:24:00,360 --> 00:24:01,360 I'd like you to be there. 260 00:24:02,080 --> 00:24:03,080 At night? 261 00:24:04,650 --> 00:24:05,750 I have evening prayer. 262 00:24:06,010 --> 00:24:08,890 I will call Sister Daniel Ann, and I'll take responsibility. 263 00:24:16,690 --> 00:24:18,270 Good night. 264 00:24:18,530 --> 00:24:19,770 Good night. Good to see you. 265 00:24:20,050 --> 00:24:22,130 Good night, Father. Good night. 266 00:24:22,530 --> 00:24:23,530 Thank you. 267 00:24:25,050 --> 00:24:30,230 What do you think? 268 00:24:30,810 --> 00:24:31,870 I'd love to do it. 269 00:24:33,550 --> 00:24:35,250 You must be starving. You haven't eaten. 270 00:24:35,570 --> 00:24:38,070 Well, our community still doesn't permit our eating with seculars. 271 00:24:38,370 --> 00:24:39,370 Well, you can eat with me. 272 00:24:40,050 --> 00:24:41,050 Let's get some pizza. 273 00:24:45,630 --> 00:24:48,950 Since you're going to be running the next committee meeting, there's some 274 00:24:48,950 --> 00:24:51,170 that I think you should understand about this group. 275 00:24:51,750 --> 00:24:53,930 Okay? It's important that you listen to this. 276 00:24:54,190 --> 00:24:55,210 I mean, it's really important. 277 00:24:55,570 --> 00:24:57,150 Are you listening? Yes. All right? 278 00:24:57,930 --> 00:25:02,510 Now, half the group likes pepperoni. The other half likes sausage. 279 00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:04,980 You understand that? I'll try to remember that. 280 00:25:06,720 --> 00:25:10,740 You know how badly I want to do this, but I do have problems with time and 281 00:25:10,740 --> 00:25:11,579 getting away. 282 00:25:11,580 --> 00:25:12,760 Well, it can all be worked out. 283 00:25:14,180 --> 00:25:15,180 Would you like a beer? 284 00:25:16,760 --> 00:25:17,760 No. 285 00:25:19,220 --> 00:25:21,320 Come on, eat, eat, eat, eat. Use your hands. 286 00:25:22,540 --> 00:25:26,700 Maybe if I read a description of the plan and if I give my request. 287 00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:28,720 You trying? 288 00:25:30,010 --> 00:25:32,970 Oh, yeah. Yeah, I used to. I might have been having a little driver's commit 289 00:25:32,970 --> 00:25:33,970 about somewhere. 290 00:25:34,230 --> 00:25:35,230 Well, I hope you do. 291 00:25:42,410 --> 00:25:44,390 You didn't forget how to do this. You're doing great. 292 00:25:45,190 --> 00:25:46,990 I've got to get permission to renew my license. 293 00:25:51,590 --> 00:25:54,010 I want to go around the block just one more time, okay? 294 00:26:06,879 --> 00:26:10,400 You know, when I was a little girl, I used to know the words to all of the 295 00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:11,580 songs. Really? 296 00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:13,180 Well, never too late. 297 00:26:17,320 --> 00:26:20,540 I better go in. 298 00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:41,800 So you're going on vacation soon. 299 00:26:42,800 --> 00:26:43,800 Yes, I am. 300 00:26:44,060 --> 00:26:46,720 Some parishioners donated a cabin by the lake. 301 00:26:47,460 --> 00:26:49,120 It's the first time we're all going to be alone. 302 00:26:50,900 --> 00:26:54,620 Well... Catch this. 303 00:26:57,280 --> 00:26:58,280 Thank you. 304 00:27:01,420 --> 00:27:02,420 Thank you. 305 00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:04,560 Aren't you going to open it? 306 00:27:04,700 --> 00:27:08,660 I don't have to. It's just wonderful like this. Thank you very much. 307 00:27:09,320 --> 00:27:10,239 You're welcome. 308 00:27:10,240 --> 00:27:14,020 And I agree, it's very nice like that. But I think it's even nicer on the 309 00:27:14,020 --> 00:27:15,020 inside. 310 00:27:16,060 --> 00:27:17,060 Open it. 311 00:27:22,900 --> 00:27:23,900 It's a radio. 312 00:27:27,160 --> 00:27:32,340 I thought... You thought it was going to be a prayer book? Yes, I did. 313 00:27:33,360 --> 00:27:36,460 Well, I guess I just knew somehow that you were... 314 00:27:36,890 --> 00:27:39,030 Want to learn the words to all those new songs. 315 00:27:41,670 --> 00:27:43,390 I'm going to take it with me. Thank you. 316 00:27:48,090 --> 00:27:49,610 Well, I'll be gone when you get back. 317 00:27:54,030 --> 00:27:55,030 I'll miss you. 318 00:27:57,870 --> 00:28:03,370 Well, you can phone, collect, anytime you want. 319 00:28:04,730 --> 00:28:05,730 We can write. 320 00:28:07,820 --> 00:28:08,820 We'll be even closer. 321 00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:23,480 Well, I... I really better be getting in. 322 00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:29,100 I had a lovely time. 323 00:29:03,820 --> 00:29:04,820 I feel exactly the same. 324 00:29:38,700 --> 00:29:39,700 be here yet. 325 00:29:48,260 --> 00:29:52,980 What do you 326 00:29:52,980 --> 00:29:58,460 think of my sweater? 327 00:30:04,140 --> 00:30:05,140 What'll it be? 328 00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:08,040 kidding. They said make ourselves at home. 329 00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:15,520 Wait. Here. Oh, yeah. Put these on. We got the best stuff. Here. Oh, thank you. 330 00:30:16,300 --> 00:30:17,300 Well, what do you think? 331 00:30:17,540 --> 00:30:23,600 I have died and gone to heaven. 332 00:30:24,200 --> 00:30:25,460 This is heaven. 333 00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:26,840 Thanks. You're welcome. 334 00:30:28,980 --> 00:30:31,560 I had a boyfriend who used to bring me to a place like this. 335 00:30:31,940 --> 00:30:32,940 You had a boyfriend? 336 00:30:33,420 --> 00:30:35,580 Yeah, not everybody went to prep school, you know. 337 00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:37,480 Well, you know what they say. 338 00:30:38,120 --> 00:30:41,040 You've got to live it up before you give it up. 339 00:30:41,540 --> 00:30:42,820 Oh, is that what they say? 340 00:30:43,720 --> 00:30:45,000 Hey, go easy on that. 341 00:30:49,140 --> 00:30:50,140 Yeah. 342 00:30:50,660 --> 00:30:52,520 Have a water. Cold, but great. 343 00:30:53,780 --> 00:30:54,960 Okay, I'm going in. 344 00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:27,000 Watch it. Remember, sister would say, girls, it's my duty to warn you about 345 00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:30,040 certain grave dangers that threaten your soul and body. Oh. 346 00:31:31,320 --> 00:31:32,320 She's bleeding. 347 00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:33,600 This is awful. 348 00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:36,000 What is? 349 00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:39,320 Remember two years ago my mother was dying? 350 00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:48,940 And I had to choose to either go to her funeral or be with her when she died. 351 00:31:53,870 --> 00:31:55,070 I wasn't allowed to do both. 352 00:31:59,190 --> 00:32:03,910 And now all the rules have changed and we have vacations and here we are. 353 00:32:11,150 --> 00:32:13,490 It all seems so tough. 354 00:32:19,150 --> 00:32:23,070 Why was it like that? 355 00:32:27,660 --> 00:32:28,780 Winston, let me go. 356 00:32:34,440 --> 00:32:35,440 I'm sorry. 357 00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:42,420 I didn't mean to ruin the party. 358 00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:46,020 So, where are the hot dogs? 359 00:32:51,900 --> 00:32:52,900 Right here. 360 00:32:53,540 --> 00:32:54,540 What do you want on it? 361 00:32:54,940 --> 00:32:56,920 Everything. I'm so hungry. 362 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:16,680 Each time we put on our habit, we said a prayer. 363 00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:23,220 May this habit protect and shelter me and shut out the sights and sounds that 364 00:33:23,220 --> 00:33:24,220 might distract me. 365 00:33:26,280 --> 00:33:30,440 This time, I knew it was more than sunburn causing my pain. 366 00:33:40,260 --> 00:33:41,260 How's the sunburn? 367 00:33:42,409 --> 00:33:43,409 Starting to itch. 368 00:33:54,150 --> 00:33:56,630 Mary, they're not going to let you head the Washburn project. 369 00:33:57,770 --> 00:33:59,230 I thought everything would be approved. 370 00:33:59,550 --> 00:34:00,810 So did I, but they said no. 371 00:34:01,830 --> 00:34:03,890 You've got to help me. You have to do something. 372 00:34:04,550 --> 00:34:06,010 I can't go against authority. 373 00:34:07,190 --> 00:34:09,989 But... Father Meyer feels you need more time teaching. 374 00:34:10,330 --> 00:34:11,330 He's wrong. 375 00:34:11,659 --> 00:34:12,659 I can do this. 376 00:34:13,540 --> 00:34:17,139 That's why I came into the convent. You came into the convent to serve God. 377 00:34:17,520 --> 00:34:18,760 God, not Father Meyer. 378 00:34:20,500 --> 00:34:24,440 You've got to learn patience, Mary, or you'll make yourself so unhappy. 379 00:34:26,500 --> 00:34:27,500 I'm sorry. 380 00:34:30,199 --> 00:34:31,199 Who's taking over? 381 00:34:32,360 --> 00:34:33,420 They're sending out a priest. 382 00:34:37,190 --> 00:34:40,150 I can't bear to go back to selling raffle tickets in the homeroom and 383 00:34:40,150 --> 00:34:41,830 suffocating in the parlor at night. 384 00:34:43,250 --> 00:34:44,250 You have an alternative. 385 00:34:46,230 --> 00:34:47,230 What? 386 00:34:47,929 --> 00:34:51,870 The Archdiocese is offering full scholarships to nuns and priests who 387 00:34:51,870 --> 00:34:53,469 graduate study in religious education. 388 00:34:53,929 --> 00:34:54,929 Would I qualify? 389 00:34:55,889 --> 00:34:56,889 Easily. 390 00:34:57,950 --> 00:34:58,950 Where would I go? 391 00:34:59,330 --> 00:35:00,710 Fordham University in New York. 392 00:35:02,530 --> 00:35:05,070 Well, think about it and let me know. I don't have to think about it. I would 393 00:35:05,070 --> 00:35:06,070 love to go. 394 00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:28,640 Everything turn, turn, turn. 395 00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:33,400 There is a season turn, turn, turn. 396 00:35:33,940 --> 00:35:39,260 And a time to every purpose under heaven. 397 00:35:40,720 --> 00:35:44,880 A time to build up. A time to break down. 398 00:35:45,180 --> 00:35:46,760 A time to dance. 399 00:35:47,000 --> 00:35:49,020 A time to mourn. 400 00:35:49,440 --> 00:35:52,340 A time to cast away stone. 401 00:36:06,700 --> 00:36:07,700 Hi. Hiya. 402 00:36:08,680 --> 00:36:11,660 I can't believe I'm really here. Yeah, you really are. 403 00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:13,200 Welcome to New York. 404 00:36:13,460 --> 00:36:14,460 Thank you. 405 00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:16,200 Sorry I couldn't meet you. 406 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:18,800 You look great. 407 00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:20,120 So do you. 408 00:36:20,200 --> 00:36:21,340 Yeah? Yeah. 409 00:36:22,990 --> 00:36:25,990 I was sure you'd be fat from eating all those Paris ladies' cookies. 410 00:36:31,110 --> 00:36:32,110 Hi. 411 00:36:34,250 --> 00:36:35,930 Hi. This is Sister Louise. 412 00:36:37,390 --> 00:36:38,390 Sister? 413 00:36:39,450 --> 00:36:41,010 Yes. Hello. 414 00:36:41,290 --> 00:36:45,790 Hello. I boarded St. Albans, too, and it's so nice to have you here. Thank you 415 00:36:45,790 --> 00:36:46,709 very much. 416 00:36:46,710 --> 00:36:50,310 Well, let me help with the bed. No, no, no, forget it. Okay, all right. 417 00:36:53,930 --> 00:36:54,950 You look terrific. 418 00:36:55,270 --> 00:36:58,590 Oh, thank you. I thought I'd fit in better if I changed a modified habit. 419 00:36:59,690 --> 00:37:01,310 I would love for you to meet some people. 420 00:37:01,570 --> 00:37:02,950 Don and Mark are from Michigan. 421 00:37:03,230 --> 00:37:05,050 She's a sister of Mercy. He's a Jesuit. 422 00:37:05,350 --> 00:37:07,290 And you'll be taking Todd's course, right? Right. 423 00:37:07,510 --> 00:37:09,790 Well, you might as well meet him and the rest of the family. 424 00:37:10,090 --> 00:37:11,810 Terrific. I really love it here. 425 00:37:13,110 --> 00:37:17,670 So different. It is. On the board, you have a free piece here. I'm thinking. 426 00:37:17,710 --> 00:37:18,970 Hi. None. 427 00:37:19,580 --> 00:37:21,380 Priest, psychologist, mother, child. 428 00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:22,840 I'm the priest. 429 00:37:23,060 --> 00:37:24,680 Hi, I'm Sister Mary DePaul. 430 00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:28,580 Hi. She used to work with Tim at Washburn. Oh, yeah. I've heard you guys 431 00:37:28,580 --> 00:37:29,580 great work there. 432 00:37:29,740 --> 00:37:33,640 Oh, thank you. Sit down. All right, you two. Who's winning this game? I'm having 433 00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:36,880 some major problems. It's all part of the strategy. Part of the strategy. 434 00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:39,380 It's an ongoing battle, okay? 435 00:37:40,180 --> 00:37:41,180 I'm going to move this. 436 00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:48,060 It's only one space at a time. You don't have a chance. 437 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:50,560 For me? For me? 438 00:37:50,760 --> 00:37:54,800 Sitting there in the sun with new friends, I wondered how I could ever 439 00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:56,620 believed it was wrong to feel this good. 440 00:38:02,120 --> 00:38:06,620 Now, how many of you out there are not psychology majors? 441 00:38:10,260 --> 00:38:14,740 Okay, for those of you who are, I run groups and do counseling with troubled 442 00:38:14,740 --> 00:38:16,320 kids who can't afford the help. 443 00:38:16,940 --> 00:38:20,260 I'm always looking for volunteers. There's a lot of kids out there that 444 00:38:20,260 --> 00:38:21,260 help. 445 00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:27,180 Now, in this course, we are going to challenge all of your rules. 446 00:38:27,540 --> 00:38:31,060 We're going to attack your innermost and sacred ideas. 447 00:38:31,660 --> 00:38:35,820 And if you don't run into thoughts that scare you, then the course isn't 448 00:38:35,820 --> 00:38:36,820 working. 449 00:38:37,320 --> 00:38:43,120 As you may have noticed, there's an intellectual revolution going on on this 450 00:38:43,120 --> 00:38:44,120 campus. 451 00:38:51,500 --> 00:38:53,040 Abraham, children's son. 452 00:38:53,500 --> 00:38:56,180 They said, man, you're cooking me on. 453 00:38:56,740 --> 00:38:59,300 They said, run. 454 00:38:59,580 --> 00:39:01,720 You can do it. 455 00:39:02,420 --> 00:39:05,200 Make a sign when you see me coming. 456 00:39:05,460 --> 00:39:06,620 You better run. 457 00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:17,440 They said, when you want it, get it done. It's got it on Highway 458 00:39:17,440 --> 00:39:18,440 61. 459 00:39:29,480 --> 00:39:32,180 Keep on until we get them to change the rules. 460 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:36,080 Oh, no, I am all for that. But if you tell them that he wasn't always required 461 00:39:36,080 --> 00:39:38,600 to breathe, well, at least it's the 16th century. 462 00:39:38,820 --> 00:39:41,740 Yeah, what's the bad time for a change? Mark's joined a group that's working to 463 00:39:41,740 --> 00:39:45,800 make celibacy optional again. Oh, I cannot imagine anything like this 464 00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:49,760 Well, it better. Too many people want to serve God and have a life of their own. 465 00:39:49,780 --> 00:39:52,400 I'm telling you, if they don't change, people will just keep leaving. 466 00:39:52,760 --> 00:39:54,000 Leaving? We just got here. 467 00:39:54,460 --> 00:39:56,680 Not the party. Our orders. 468 00:39:56,980 --> 00:39:59,300 Well, go ahead out and have a good time. Come on, Lee. Let's find out. 469 00:40:00,540 --> 00:40:01,540 Mary, 470 00:40:02,480 --> 00:40:03,940 did you get something to eat? I'm fine with that. 471 00:40:04,180 --> 00:40:07,860 Good. Oh, Todd, I was wondering about your groups. Remember you were talking 472 00:40:07,860 --> 00:40:08,880 about them in class? Mm -hmm. 473 00:40:09,120 --> 00:40:10,540 Thanks. It was terrific, but we're leaving. 474 00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:12,220 Oh, Susan, I want to talk to you about something. 475 00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:13,800 Mary, can I talk to you later? Yes. 476 00:40:14,020 --> 00:40:15,020 I'd like that. 477 00:41:13,930 --> 00:41:14,930 volunteer to teach? 478 00:41:15,690 --> 00:41:20,250 Because I don't think it's enough just to get kids to read. I want to deal with 479 00:41:20,250 --> 00:41:22,470 what causes their difficulty, what keeps them stuck. 480 00:41:22,790 --> 00:41:25,630 Are you aware that religions are turned off by most of these kids? Oh, Todd, I'm 481 00:41:25,630 --> 00:41:26,650 not going to try and conflict them. 482 00:41:27,970 --> 00:41:29,010 You ever had any conflict? 483 00:41:29,870 --> 00:41:30,870 Or done any? 484 00:41:32,050 --> 00:41:35,230 Well, I've worked with a few kids and I've taken some psych courses. 485 00:41:35,910 --> 00:41:37,510 Tell me, what do you know about the world? 486 00:41:40,870 --> 00:41:43,230 Not much. Then why should I say yes? 487 00:41:43,890 --> 00:41:44,930 Because I care. 488 00:41:45,650 --> 00:41:49,050 And I think I'd be very good at it. Anyway, you work for free and you can 489 00:41:49,050 --> 00:41:50,050 use the volunteers. 490 00:41:50,470 --> 00:41:51,690 I'll give her a reference. 491 00:41:53,050 --> 00:41:54,050 You okay? 492 00:41:55,230 --> 00:41:57,510 You got some hungry people out there. All right, it's coming. 493 00:41:57,730 --> 00:41:58,730 It's coming. 494 00:41:59,350 --> 00:42:00,830 And I'm not very big on degrees. 495 00:42:01,710 --> 00:42:03,550 Kids have to approve of a new counselor. 496 00:42:04,910 --> 00:42:06,730 Are you willing to put yourself on the line? 497 00:42:07,630 --> 00:42:10,150 Yes. They'll be tough on you. Okay, I understand that. 498 00:42:13,580 --> 00:42:14,580 show up Saturday. 499 00:42:48,910 --> 00:42:50,870 You decided to be a nun in the eighth grade? 500 00:42:52,150 --> 00:42:53,250 Well, sort of. 501 00:42:54,050 --> 00:42:58,690 I entered the convent prep school to find out. It's like a boarding school, 502 00:42:58,850 --> 00:43:01,030 except in a convent. How old were you? 503 00:43:02,270 --> 00:43:03,270 Fourteen. 504 00:43:03,670 --> 00:43:04,670 Fourteen! 505 00:43:04,890 --> 00:43:07,770 That means you've never been out or anything. No guy, nothing. 506 00:43:08,090 --> 00:43:09,330 You never wanted to have fun? 507 00:43:09,530 --> 00:43:12,750 Yeah. I wanted to commit myself to helping others. 508 00:43:13,010 --> 00:43:16,410 To me, a nun was something special. And safe? 509 00:43:17,860 --> 00:43:19,060 No, no. 510 00:43:20,160 --> 00:43:23,660 People think that we lead such a sheltered life, but we worked hard for 511 00:43:23,660 --> 00:43:24,660 everything. 512 00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:28,080 Besides our schoolwork, we helped out in the bakery. 513 00:43:29,380 --> 00:43:34,680 And the cannery. And we cleaned the dorms when the regular students left. 514 00:43:34,720 --> 00:43:36,640 of course, we prayed. Have you ever been alone? 515 00:43:37,160 --> 00:43:38,380 No. On your own? 516 00:43:38,880 --> 00:43:41,760 No. My mother dumped me when I was 10. 517 00:43:42,220 --> 00:43:44,600 By the time I was 14, I was pregnant. 518 00:43:45,120 --> 00:43:48,380 You've been locked up since you were 14. You don't have a clue about where I'm 519 00:43:48,380 --> 00:43:49,218 coming from. 520 00:43:49,220 --> 00:43:50,420 But I could understand. 521 00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:52,140 Oh, and what? 522 00:43:52,620 --> 00:43:55,460 Tell me I should have taken the pill? Or had an abortion? 523 00:43:56,000 --> 00:43:57,680 Well, I couldn't go against my religion. 524 00:43:57,960 --> 00:43:59,500 Hey, that's another world out there. 525 00:43:59,900 --> 00:44:05,220 You don't have to be sick yourself to cure people. It sounds like some kind of 526 00:44:05,220 --> 00:44:07,760 rule you learned. Yeah, we're talking about feeling. 527 00:44:08,180 --> 00:44:09,180 Like love. 528 00:44:09,240 --> 00:44:10,700 Yeah, loneliness and fear. 529 00:44:11,340 --> 00:44:14,060 What makes you think I don't feel those things? Because you've got this sign 530 00:44:14,060 --> 00:44:15,600 that excuses you from real life. 531 00:44:15,980 --> 00:44:17,740 Nobody gets excused. 532 00:44:17,980 --> 00:44:18,980 Not even a nun. 533 00:44:19,860 --> 00:44:22,740 I know as much about loneliness and feelings as you do. 534 00:44:22,960 --> 00:44:24,100 Why does that make you angry? 535 00:44:24,420 --> 00:44:27,240 I'm not angry. I just didn't come here to defend being a nun. 536 00:44:27,540 --> 00:44:31,000 I think you feel threatened because we won't let you have your big... 537 00:45:13,779 --> 00:45:14,779 You okay? 538 00:45:16,820 --> 00:45:18,460 Now, can you see this all the way? 539 00:45:20,180 --> 00:45:21,220 I'm not a quitter. 540 00:45:23,000 --> 00:45:28,480 Mary, whatever happens here today, my advice to you is to take care of your 541 00:45:28,480 --> 00:45:29,480 life. 542 00:45:50,640 --> 00:45:53,560 will know that I am gone. 543 00:45:53,860 --> 00:46:00,660 You can hear the whistle blow a hundred miles, 544 00:46:02,160 --> 00:46:08,640 a hundred miles, a hundred miles, a 545 00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:12,340 hundred miles, a hundred miles. 546 00:46:12,560 --> 00:46:14,660 You can hear 547 00:46:48,080 --> 00:46:49,180 I'm just glad you came. 548 00:46:51,660 --> 00:46:53,020 So they're pretty rough on you. 549 00:46:55,860 --> 00:46:58,000 I've never been through anything like that before. 550 00:46:59,440 --> 00:47:00,880 Well, I think that's exciting. 551 00:47:02,340 --> 00:47:03,339 I do. 552 00:47:03,340 --> 00:47:04,920 I think you needed a crisis. 553 00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:07,140 What does that mean? 554 00:47:08,360 --> 00:47:12,500 Well, sometimes I think we put ourselves in situations where we're forced to 555 00:47:12,500 --> 00:47:13,500 learn something. 556 00:47:17,580 --> 00:47:18,660 I don't know what I'm learning. 557 00:47:20,660 --> 00:47:23,720 I have so many new friends. I have my new classes. 558 00:47:28,340 --> 00:47:30,300 How did I stay silent for so long? 559 00:47:31,760 --> 00:47:33,960 I'm so excited about everything. 560 00:47:34,620 --> 00:47:38,680 And I'm... I'm so confused. 561 00:47:43,600 --> 00:47:45,000 Are you thinking about leaving? 562 00:47:45,300 --> 00:47:46,300 No. 563 00:48:02,640 --> 00:48:04,320 Mary, I've watched you grow so much. 564 00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:08,160 That means it's the first day you walked into Washburn. 565 00:48:10,440 --> 00:48:11,860 And I realize that didn't even help. 566 00:48:16,940 --> 00:48:17,980 It's probably inevitable. 567 00:48:20,480 --> 00:48:21,680 Will you think I'm a failure? 568 00:48:23,860 --> 00:48:24,860 Never. 569 00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:31,600 All my life, I have known exactly what I wanted to do. 570 00:48:32,140 --> 00:48:33,500 I have followed set courses. 571 00:48:35,900 --> 00:48:38,640 And now I'm asking questions and I don't know the answers. 572 00:48:39,100 --> 00:48:40,940 I just don't know anything anymore. 573 00:48:43,960 --> 00:48:45,200 I just realized something. 574 00:48:49,320 --> 00:48:50,680 You're not looking down anymore. 575 00:48:52,880 --> 00:48:54,160 You look me right in the eye. 576 00:48:58,460 --> 00:48:59,460 Is that okay? 577 00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:09,320 Honestly, I liked it better when you observed custody in the eyes. 578 00:49:11,460 --> 00:49:12,820 I got to watch you in private. 579 00:49:18,700 --> 00:49:19,700 But you know what? 580 00:49:21,140 --> 00:49:22,200 It's more than okay. 581 00:49:24,680 --> 00:49:25,680 It's a privilege. 582 00:49:29,080 --> 00:49:31,880 I went home at Christmas, still searching. 583 00:49:32,990 --> 00:49:34,230 And found a new friend. 584 00:49:34,990 --> 00:49:35,990 My sister. 585 00:49:36,970 --> 00:49:37,970 Oh, Mary. 586 00:49:38,130 --> 00:49:39,310 So good to talk to you. 587 00:49:40,730 --> 00:49:41,750 It's good to talk to you. 588 00:49:42,870 --> 00:49:45,570 Now, I know you're worried about what Mom and Dad are doing. 589 00:49:46,090 --> 00:49:47,090 They should be. 590 00:49:47,530 --> 00:49:48,530 Because they love you. 591 00:49:49,950 --> 00:49:50,950 Thanks. 592 00:49:54,570 --> 00:49:58,150 I never thought we'd have you back with us like this ever again. 593 00:50:01,660 --> 00:50:03,520 Well, it could be like this from now on. 594 00:50:12,940 --> 00:50:14,120 I'm leaving the convent. 595 00:50:15,400 --> 00:50:16,600 You're leaving? 596 00:50:19,100 --> 00:50:21,780 You've wanted to be a nun ever since you were a little girl. 597 00:50:23,860 --> 00:50:27,440 Mom, back then it seemed like there were only two choices. 598 00:50:28,700 --> 00:50:30,000 Marriage or... 599 00:50:30,700 --> 00:50:34,420 serving God and doing good in the world. Your mother and I have been serving God 600 00:50:34,420 --> 00:50:35,420 all our lives. 601 00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:40,620 Exactly. And once I went out on mission, I began to see all these choices and 602 00:50:40,620 --> 00:50:46,060 people just like you and Mom, with children and real lives and still 603 00:50:46,280 --> 00:50:47,780 Have you talked to Sister Agnes? 604 00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:50,080 I wanted to come to this decision on my own. 605 00:50:53,560 --> 00:50:55,300 I thought coming home would help. 606 00:51:00,110 --> 00:51:01,110 And it has. 607 00:51:14,170 --> 00:51:15,430 You still get up at night? 608 00:51:18,310 --> 00:51:19,750 It's quiet, I can think. 609 00:51:23,730 --> 00:51:24,730 Mom. 610 00:51:27,530 --> 00:51:28,830 Please talk to me. 611 00:51:30,060 --> 00:51:31,800 Don't let me go without knowing how you feel. 612 00:51:35,700 --> 00:51:37,740 I've been remembering the day you told me. 613 00:51:38,560 --> 00:51:39,920 You came home from school. 614 00:51:40,720 --> 00:51:45,420 I was in the kitchen and you said, I think I have to call you. 615 00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:50,820 I was 14. I didn't know a lot about life. 616 00:51:53,080 --> 00:51:55,960 You were received. I was so proud of you. 617 00:51:58,000 --> 00:52:01,640 I can be all those things that make you proud and still have a life. 618 00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:10,180 What you said about the marriage or the convent, that was true in those days. 619 00:52:11,820 --> 00:52:13,600 Here in a small town, that's all there was. 620 00:52:16,700 --> 00:52:19,880 When I was young, I thought of becoming a nun. 621 00:52:21,400 --> 00:52:22,400 Why stopped you? 622 00:52:22,960 --> 00:52:24,100 I was too afraid. 623 00:52:25,680 --> 00:52:26,720 Did Daddy ever know? 624 00:52:28,970 --> 00:52:30,670 I was over it by the time I met him. 625 00:52:31,450 --> 00:52:32,490 But Agnes knew. 626 00:52:33,370 --> 00:52:34,410 And she did it. 627 00:52:35,930 --> 00:52:36,930 She was like you. 628 00:52:37,370 --> 00:52:38,570 She had her own ideas. 629 00:52:40,150 --> 00:52:44,390 She was stubborn and... You were more like her daughter than mine. 630 00:52:45,550 --> 00:52:46,750 You admired her so. 631 00:52:48,010 --> 00:52:49,770 I still do. She's very special. 632 00:52:52,110 --> 00:52:53,310 I was so jealous. 633 00:52:55,820 --> 00:52:58,340 I don't know how many Hail Marys I said because of that sin. 634 00:52:59,740 --> 00:53:00,740 Mom. 635 00:53:01,860 --> 00:53:08,320 If I pushed you into it without realizing... It was my fault. 636 00:53:08,660 --> 00:53:09,660 Your fault? 637 00:53:10,200 --> 00:53:13,620 If you've been unhappy all these years because of me? 638 00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:14,880 Oh, Mom. 639 00:53:16,420 --> 00:53:18,080 You didn't push me. 640 00:53:18,700 --> 00:53:21,500 And I... I wasn't unhappy. 641 00:53:22,560 --> 00:53:23,620 I have... 642 00:53:24,200 --> 00:53:28,640 A lot of wonderful memories from the convent. I'll always treasure them. 643 00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:33,960 Good to have you home. 644 00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:45,220 I'd forgotten the silence. 645 00:53:46,120 --> 00:53:47,120 It's here. 646 00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:49,300 So are we if you need us. 647 00:53:52,780 --> 00:53:54,760 Here are the clothes you came to us in. 648 00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:57,100 Seems so long ago. 649 00:53:59,920 --> 00:54:01,920 Sister Carmelita will be your witness. 650 00:54:05,860 --> 00:54:11,600 The papers you signed today release you from your vows and sever your 651 00:54:11,600 --> 00:54:14,160 relationship with the Sisters of Blessing. 652 00:54:23,600 --> 00:54:26,500 Mary, the Order wanted you to have this money to help you get started in the 653 00:54:26,500 --> 00:54:27,500 world. 654 00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:28,560 Thank you. 655 00:54:34,920 --> 00:54:37,200 I wish you the best, Mary. 656 00:54:38,780 --> 00:54:40,680 We are losing so many of you. 657 00:54:42,900 --> 00:54:45,820 I guess we didn't understand soon enough. 658 00:54:49,780 --> 00:54:50,780 God bless you. 659 00:54:56,140 --> 00:55:00,720 I'll leave you to change your clothes now One of the sisters will drive you to 660 00:55:00,720 --> 00:55:04,500 the station You'll forgive us if we miss you 661 00:55:36,430 --> 00:55:37,428 You're my first guest. 662 00:55:37,430 --> 00:55:38,470 Well, what do you think? 663 00:55:41,350 --> 00:55:42,350 It's nice. 664 00:55:42,390 --> 00:55:43,850 Boy, you look nice. Thank you. 665 00:55:46,870 --> 00:55:49,270 Well, take a look around the apartment. I'll go get some coffee. 666 00:55:50,130 --> 00:55:52,630 I couldn't decide what color to paint it, so I just painted it white. 667 00:55:59,090 --> 00:56:00,090 How's the teaching going? 668 00:56:00,790 --> 00:56:04,520 Good. So far, none of my students have managed to kill each other. I've gotten 669 00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:06,540 three paychecks. I have a checkbook and an ID. 670 00:56:06,980 --> 00:56:08,840 So you see, I'm surviving out here in the real world. 671 00:56:09,520 --> 00:56:10,520 Sit down. 672 00:56:10,660 --> 00:56:12,240 I never had any doubts about you. 673 00:56:14,320 --> 00:56:15,660 Have you ever had your own apartment? 674 00:56:15,900 --> 00:56:16,900 No, never. 675 00:56:17,880 --> 00:56:20,960 No, first I was in seminary and ever since then in rectories. 676 00:56:22,300 --> 00:56:26,600 You know, sometimes at night, I really miss knowing that there are sisters in 677 00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:27,600 the rooms all around me. 678 00:56:30,240 --> 00:56:32,900 Well, you know there are support groups of former nuns and priests. 679 00:56:33,800 --> 00:56:35,040 I would be an ex -nun. 680 00:56:36,520 --> 00:56:38,640 Oh, I see you're just going to march out into the world. 681 00:56:39,260 --> 00:56:41,360 I did just march out into the world. 682 00:56:52,000 --> 00:56:54,960 Oh, I forgot. I made cookies, just like the parish ladies. 683 00:56:55,240 --> 00:56:56,240 I can't speak. 684 00:56:57,770 --> 00:57:00,210 I knew I couldn't, but I wanted to come over and see the apartment anyway. 685 00:57:03,890 --> 00:57:05,850 I'm headed up to Boston on a retreat. 686 00:57:06,490 --> 00:57:07,490 Oh. 687 00:57:10,070 --> 00:57:11,530 So I better get home. Thank you. 688 00:57:14,910 --> 00:57:15,910 Okay. 689 00:57:17,870 --> 00:57:20,150 I'll call you when I get back. Okay. Have a good retreat. 690 00:57:21,590 --> 00:57:22,590 Thanks. 691 00:57:38,030 --> 00:57:39,250 I'm going to check what I'm trying to say. 692 00:57:42,210 --> 00:57:42,590 You 693 00:57:42,590 --> 00:57:50,810 look 694 00:57:50,810 --> 00:57:55,710 sensational. 695 00:57:57,350 --> 00:57:58,350 Thanks. 696 00:57:58,510 --> 00:57:59,930 Well, I decided to take your advice. 697 00:58:00,670 --> 00:58:04,290 I still feel a little strange. 698 00:58:05,090 --> 00:58:06,550 Well, Katie, how's it going? 699 00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:09,760 Well, I hope your dad's selling a lot of tickets because we're selling a lot of 700 00:58:09,760 --> 00:58:11,520 beers. All right. My feet are killing me. 701 00:58:12,440 --> 00:58:15,080 I don't see Donna or Louise. 702 00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:16,600 They'll be here later. 703 00:58:16,960 --> 00:58:20,180 Look, have fun. No, wait, Todd. Todd, don't leave me here alone. 704 00:58:21,340 --> 00:58:22,560 You won't be for long. 705 00:58:49,160 --> 00:58:50,440 Like a complete unknown. 706 00:59:21,230 --> 00:59:22,230 Yeah, 707 00:59:22,890 --> 00:59:23,890 I am a little. 708 00:59:25,070 --> 00:59:26,410 Well, I got the perfect year for that. 709 00:59:27,370 --> 00:59:30,590 Usually about this time of the night, I like to go for a nice walk. 710 00:59:31,870 --> 00:59:32,870 Get some fresh air. 711 00:59:34,550 --> 00:59:35,550 Want to go? 712 00:59:37,650 --> 00:59:39,450 I just got here. 713 00:59:40,190 --> 00:59:41,250 How about a half an hour? 714 00:59:44,110 --> 00:59:47,790 How about an hour? An hour? 715 00:59:48,170 --> 00:59:50,150 Okay, that gives us time for a drink and a dance. 716 00:59:50,570 --> 00:59:51,650 My name is Rick Hamilton. 717 00:59:52,290 --> 00:59:53,510 I'm Mary Gilligan. 718 01:00:29,150 --> 01:00:34,410 She takes just like a woman. 719 01:00:34,650 --> 01:00:40,510 Yes, she does. She makes love just like a woman. 720 01:00:40,810 --> 01:00:46,690 Yes, she does. She takes just like a woman. 721 01:00:47,350 --> 01:00:51,930 But she makes just like a little girl. 722 01:01:05,960 --> 01:01:07,400 I need to see Fran. 723 01:01:10,960 --> 01:01:12,320 Are you sure? 724 01:01:15,040 --> 01:01:16,040 Okay. 725 01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:17,560 I'll see you around. 726 01:01:21,320 --> 01:01:26,580 She's like all the rest with a fly that means 727 01:01:26,580 --> 01:01:33,540 she tastes just like 728 01:01:33,540 --> 01:01:34,459 a woman. 729 01:01:34,460 --> 01:01:40,380 Yes, she makes love just like a woman. 730 01:01:40,600 --> 01:01:46,420 Yes, she does. And she eats just like a woman. 731 01:01:47,260 --> 01:01:49,100 But she breaks. 732 01:01:50,160 --> 01:01:52,160 Just like a little girl. 733 01:01:52,860 --> 01:01:53,860 Tim! Hi. 734 01:01:55,500 --> 01:01:56,500 Isn't this great? 735 01:01:56,740 --> 01:01:59,240 I got it at the Salvation Army for my birthday. 736 01:01:59,880 --> 01:02:01,400 Oh, speaking of your birthday. 737 01:02:04,380 --> 01:02:05,380 You remembered. 738 01:02:13,100 --> 01:02:14,100 Beautiful. 739 01:02:16,720 --> 01:02:17,720 Thank you. 740 01:02:27,600 --> 01:02:28,600 How was Boston? 741 01:02:30,640 --> 01:02:31,640 Fine. 742 01:02:32,640 --> 01:02:36,220 Phil, you want to come celebrate with me? It is my first birthday as Mary 743 01:02:36,220 --> 01:02:37,900 Gilligan since entering the convent. 744 01:02:38,300 --> 01:02:40,640 We could rent you a bike, have a picnic. 745 01:02:43,100 --> 01:02:48,440 Mary... I can't see you anymore. 746 01:02:49,660 --> 01:02:50,660 What? 747 01:02:54,060 --> 01:02:55,060 I don't know. 748 01:03:00,720 --> 01:03:02,180 I've thought about it so much. 749 01:03:03,680 --> 01:03:04,700 It's so hard. 750 01:03:07,860 --> 01:03:11,180 But you no longer live with a vow of celibacy. 751 01:03:11,740 --> 01:03:16,260 But you do. I would never try to change that. It's me. It's not you. It's my 752 01:03:16,260 --> 01:03:17,260 confusion. 753 01:03:18,100 --> 01:03:23,280 In the past, all our feelings for each other we put into our work and into 754 01:03:23,280 --> 01:03:24,280 helping people. 755 01:03:27,460 --> 01:03:29,840 Mary, I am 30 years old. 756 01:03:30,440 --> 01:03:31,900 I've never been with a woman. 757 01:03:33,960 --> 01:03:37,840 I marry people. I believe in the union of man and woman. 758 01:03:40,020 --> 01:03:41,860 And yet I've made a choice in my life. 759 01:03:45,960 --> 01:03:52,720 When I saw you in your apartment, everything was possible for you and not 760 01:03:52,720 --> 01:03:53,720 me. 761 01:03:55,820 --> 01:03:58,940 Why didn't you tell me that I would lose you? 762 01:03:59,760 --> 01:04:02,800 I can't believe God would... I can't believe you would really want this. 763 01:04:05,200 --> 01:04:07,500 It's a deal I made, and I live with it. 764 01:04:09,840 --> 01:04:10,840 That's who I am. 765 01:04:12,340 --> 01:04:13,340 And that's it? 766 01:04:13,520 --> 01:04:14,520 That's all? 767 01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:18,860 Yes, I'm afraid it is. 768 01:04:28,620 --> 01:04:30,460 You were my friend, my teacher. 769 01:04:31,480 --> 01:04:35,640 You opened up a whole new world for me and now I'm out here alone and you 770 01:04:35,640 --> 01:04:40,160 me. I am not deserting you. Yes, you are. You encouraged me. You sent me so 771 01:04:40,160 --> 01:04:41,620 mixed signals. What were you doing? 772 01:04:41,980 --> 01:04:42,980 I don't know. 773 01:04:43,040 --> 01:04:44,040 Well, I do. 774 01:04:44,680 --> 01:04:48,820 It was fine as long as I was the little nun and you were the priest bringing 775 01:04:48,820 --> 01:04:49,820 enlightenment. 776 01:04:50,000 --> 01:04:51,180 But now I'm an equal. 777 01:04:52,160 --> 01:04:53,380 And you're afraid of that. 778 01:04:53,900 --> 01:04:55,140 Tim, I love you. 779 01:04:55,840 --> 01:04:57,800 And I can admit that and I can be... 780 01:04:59,600 --> 01:05:03,040 You can try and save the entire world, but you can't have one close 781 01:05:03,040 --> 01:05:04,040 relationship? 782 01:05:04,920 --> 01:05:05,899 Go ahead. 783 01:05:05,900 --> 01:05:07,020 Hide behind your collar. 784 01:05:07,740 --> 01:05:09,180 Don't worry. You're safe with me. 785 01:05:22,140 --> 01:05:23,140 Hello. 786 01:05:23,440 --> 01:05:24,640 Is this Rick Hamilton? 787 01:05:26,020 --> 01:05:27,020 Uh, is this... 788 01:05:27,400 --> 01:05:31,380 Rick Hamilton, who went to a benefit a couple months ago at the Village Cafe? 789 01:05:33,900 --> 01:05:35,080 Then, hello. 790 01:05:35,960 --> 01:05:36,960 We met there. 791 01:05:38,880 --> 01:05:40,540 Oh, I know. It was a long time ago. 792 01:05:41,900 --> 01:05:43,220 I'm not sure you're going to remember me. 793 01:05:43,420 --> 01:05:44,420 Mary Gilligan. 794 01:05:46,800 --> 01:05:47,800 You do? 795 01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:50,080 Terrific. 796 01:06:01,070 --> 01:06:02,550 Be careful of the rims, Chet. 797 01:06:03,310 --> 01:06:04,850 Okay. Cheers. 798 01:06:06,070 --> 01:06:07,070 You look beautiful. 799 01:06:08,570 --> 01:06:09,570 Thank you. 800 01:06:14,350 --> 01:06:15,650 Why don't I put on a record? 801 01:06:16,050 --> 01:06:17,310 Oh, I don't have a player. 802 01:06:17,650 --> 01:06:18,650 You don't have a player? 803 01:06:19,550 --> 01:06:21,030 You must not have been here very long. 804 01:06:25,670 --> 01:06:28,210 Well, um, I guess I'll put dinner on. 805 01:06:37,800 --> 01:06:39,060 Do we have to eat this early? 806 01:06:41,420 --> 01:06:43,220 No. No? I guess not. 807 01:06:44,500 --> 01:06:45,500 Okay. I have to. 808 01:06:49,200 --> 01:06:50,200 Okay. 809 01:06:50,700 --> 01:06:51,700 Hold it. 810 01:06:52,120 --> 01:06:54,520 All right. I'm an easy guy. What's the problem? 811 01:06:59,100 --> 01:07:00,100 What? 812 01:07:01,780 --> 01:07:03,080 You're my first dinner guest. 813 01:07:03,760 --> 01:07:04,760 That's it? 814 01:07:05,040 --> 01:07:06,760 Well, then relax. I'm not into cooking. 815 01:07:20,430 --> 01:07:21,550 I've never been with a man. 816 01:07:22,430 --> 01:07:23,430 Been where? 817 01:07:24,570 --> 01:07:26,270 Anywhere. On a date. 818 01:07:27,650 --> 01:07:31,150 When you kissed me that night, that was the first time. 819 01:07:34,990 --> 01:07:36,010 You're joking, right? 820 01:07:38,650 --> 01:07:39,650 No. 821 01:07:42,110 --> 01:07:43,110 Where have you been? 822 01:07:45,330 --> 01:07:46,330 In a convent. 823 01:07:46,850 --> 01:07:47,850 In a convent? 824 01:07:49,550 --> 01:07:50,550 I was a nun. 825 01:07:51,970 --> 01:07:55,790 You mean in one of those, uh... It's called a habit. 826 01:07:56,270 --> 01:07:57,390 Yeah, yeah, I know. 827 01:07:57,750 --> 01:07:58,750 I know. 828 01:08:03,970 --> 01:08:10,090 Is this you? 829 01:08:11,030 --> 01:08:12,030 Yes. 830 01:08:12,410 --> 01:08:14,450 That was taken the summer before I went in. 831 01:08:15,390 --> 01:08:16,389 To the convent. 832 01:08:19,330 --> 01:08:20,390 This is your boyfriend. 833 01:08:22,149 --> 01:08:23,149 My brother, Pat. 834 01:08:25,410 --> 01:08:26,710 Yeah, he's too young to be your boyfriend. 835 01:08:29,950 --> 01:08:32,010 What's JMJ stand for? 836 01:08:32,330 --> 01:08:33,330 Jesus, Mary, and Joseph. 837 01:08:33,630 --> 01:08:36,710 We used to put that on top of all of our letters and pictures. 838 01:08:50,640 --> 01:08:51,880 Laura, a really beautiful girl. 839 01:08:52,399 --> 01:08:55,380 And a very nice one, too. I mean that. 840 01:08:58,060 --> 01:09:03,200 But, um... I think I ought to leave. 841 01:09:04,939 --> 01:09:06,100 I'm not a nun anymore. 842 01:09:06,359 --> 01:09:07,359 I know, I know. 843 01:09:08,020 --> 01:09:10,600 But... It's a problem for you. 844 01:09:12,300 --> 01:09:13,439 Well, I guess it is. 845 01:09:32,750 --> 01:09:33,750 I'm ready to start. 846 01:09:33,870 --> 01:09:36,450 I'd really like to work with you. I can give you three nights a week. Whoa, 847 01:09:36,529 --> 01:09:39,410 whoa. What about once a week, beginning the first of the month? 848 01:09:40,310 --> 01:09:42,029 Well, I was hoping it could be a little bit sooner. 849 01:09:42,990 --> 01:09:45,149 Well, there is this new kid, Trish Reardon. 850 01:09:45,590 --> 01:09:48,850 I wanted her to work separately with someone before coming in as a group. 851 01:09:50,390 --> 01:09:51,390 You can join together. 852 01:09:52,390 --> 01:09:53,930 Great. When do I start? 853 01:09:54,910 --> 01:09:55,910 How about Thursday? 854 01:09:56,730 --> 01:09:57,730 I'll be there. 855 01:09:57,810 --> 01:10:01,070 Oh, and Mary? In the meantime, my advice to you is to go easy on her. 856 01:10:12,360 --> 01:10:13,360 I've been to the other one. 857 01:10:13,380 --> 01:10:14,380 The other council. 858 01:10:15,880 --> 01:10:19,040 Well, Todd thought it might be better if you worked with me for a while. 859 01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:27,600 What do you think about when you come in here and don't talk? 860 01:10:31,020 --> 01:10:32,020 Things. 861 01:10:32,560 --> 01:10:33,560 What things? 862 01:10:35,100 --> 01:10:36,200 Things you'll never know about. 863 01:10:40,570 --> 01:10:42,170 Look, I don't need to know your secrets. 864 01:10:43,290 --> 01:10:44,290 But you do. 865 01:10:46,430 --> 01:10:47,430 Well, do you have secrets? 866 01:10:49,150 --> 01:10:50,150 Yeah. 867 01:10:50,730 --> 01:10:52,890 There's a few things that I don't tell too many people. 868 01:10:54,130 --> 01:10:55,190 Why don't you tell me one? 869 01:10:57,270 --> 01:11:01,530 If I tell you something about myself, you tell me something about yourself. 870 01:11:02,870 --> 01:11:03,870 Deal? 871 01:11:04,190 --> 01:11:05,190 Deal. 872 01:11:07,630 --> 01:11:09,230 When I was about your age, 873 01:11:10,570 --> 01:11:16,590 I packed all my bags, gave all my dresses to my sister, my bike to my 874 01:11:16,670 --> 01:11:20,030 went off to a convent to become a nun. 875 01:11:21,450 --> 01:11:22,530 I'm not you. 876 01:11:26,370 --> 01:11:27,370 Yeah. 877 01:11:29,750 --> 01:11:30,810 Now you tell me something. 878 01:11:43,690 --> 01:11:44,690 What are you doing here? 879 01:11:44,990 --> 01:11:46,050 Waiting for you to come home. 880 01:11:47,630 --> 01:11:48,630 Well, you could have called. 881 01:11:49,270 --> 01:11:50,550 I threw away your number. 882 01:11:51,930 --> 01:11:53,030 I've been unlisted. 883 01:11:59,390 --> 01:12:00,890 I've been thinking about you, Mary. 884 01:12:05,030 --> 01:12:06,030 How about dinner? 885 01:12:06,150 --> 01:12:07,150 I owe you. 886 01:12:07,770 --> 01:12:08,910 No, you don't. You never ate. 887 01:12:10,030 --> 01:12:12,110 Come on. This is great Chinese food. 888 01:12:12,760 --> 01:12:13,760 Are you kidding? 889 01:12:15,680 --> 01:12:16,599 It's unbelievable. 890 01:12:16,600 --> 01:12:19,800 I worked it all this way. I won't take no for an answer. Come on, open the 891 01:12:20,720 --> 01:12:21,720 Okay. Okay. 892 01:12:24,080 --> 01:12:25,080 Come on in. 893 01:12:27,560 --> 01:12:29,960 This is a lot of food. 894 01:12:32,020 --> 01:12:33,560 Well, I didn't want you to go hungry. 895 01:12:37,300 --> 01:12:39,860 Mary, I want to apologize for the other night. I'm really sorry about that. 896 01:12:41,740 --> 01:12:42,740 Don't be. 897 01:12:42,900 --> 01:12:47,040 I made my first dinner. I got stood up. I'm turning into a regular girl. 898 01:12:50,840 --> 01:12:51,840 Why'd you tell me? 899 01:12:55,020 --> 01:12:56,060 I guess I was scared. 900 01:12:56,720 --> 01:12:57,720 You were scared? 901 01:12:59,960 --> 01:13:02,760 Yeah, well, I guess I was a little scared to take the responsibility. 902 01:13:05,620 --> 01:13:07,140 Do you feel responsible for me? 903 01:13:07,460 --> 01:13:08,460 I don't know. 904 01:13:09,200 --> 01:13:10,200 Yes. 905 01:13:10,860 --> 01:13:13,540 Yes. Well, look, don't worry about it. 906 01:13:15,400 --> 01:13:19,360 I have a lot of growing up to do. I'm looking for my first boyfriend, not my 907 01:13:19,360 --> 01:13:20,360 last. 908 01:13:22,420 --> 01:13:23,420 Good. 909 01:13:24,180 --> 01:13:25,440 You know what I'm looking for? 910 01:13:26,600 --> 01:13:27,680 No. What? 911 01:13:28,240 --> 01:13:32,680 I am looking for... a left fielder. 912 01:13:33,240 --> 01:13:34,240 Ever play baseball? 913 01:13:35,060 --> 01:13:38,720 No. You never played baseball? What are you doing next Sunday morning? 914 01:13:39,230 --> 01:13:40,970 Going to church like I do every Sunday morning. 915 01:13:41,330 --> 01:13:42,810 Oh, no, no. Baseball's much more fun. 916 01:13:43,190 --> 01:13:44,450 Yeah, but I can sleep in church. 917 01:13:45,210 --> 01:13:46,550 Yeah, but you can pray in the field. 918 01:13:52,450 --> 01:13:53,450 Can I do that? 919 01:13:54,930 --> 01:13:55,930 Anytime. 920 01:13:58,150 --> 01:13:59,150 Okay, walk me to the door. 921 01:13:59,750 --> 01:14:00,750 Now, we have a date. 922 01:14:01,170 --> 01:14:04,490 Next Sunday, 9 o 'clock. Breakfast and baseball. Okay. 923 01:14:05,770 --> 01:14:06,770 How are your eggs? 924 01:14:06,910 --> 01:14:08,370 They were good. Good, good. 925 01:14:08,750 --> 01:14:09,750 Good. 926 01:14:10,210 --> 01:14:12,730 It's time for us to play ball. Come on. Let's go. Ready? 927 01:14:12,950 --> 01:14:14,610 Yeah. You want some more eggs? No. No. 928 01:14:18,990 --> 01:14:19,990 Oh, no. 929 01:14:22,250 --> 01:14:23,430 Are you playing the race? 930 01:14:26,010 --> 01:14:27,210 These are very big crops. 931 01:14:28,290 --> 01:14:29,430 They won't last very long. 932 01:14:30,330 --> 01:14:31,650 Well, what are we going to do in the meantime? 933 01:14:38,990 --> 01:14:39,990 We're in the dugout. 934 01:15:46,750 --> 01:15:48,690 You should say a prayer to tell me to pick something up. 935 01:16:19,950 --> 01:16:21,570 to do something you're the one with experience. 936 01:16:57,870 --> 01:17:02,570 I asked my love to take a walk. Sorry I'm late. 937 01:17:03,010 --> 01:17:03,749 It's okay. 938 01:17:03,750 --> 01:17:07,890 Want to go to the table? To take a walk. 939 01:17:08,590 --> 01:17:11,090 Just a little walk. 940 01:17:12,710 --> 01:17:18,130 Down beside where the water flows. 941 01:17:19,970 --> 01:17:22,050 Down by the river. 942 01:17:22,510 --> 01:17:26,910 I thought you went back to the mother's house. No. 943 01:17:27,280 --> 01:17:28,280 for a couple of days. 944 01:17:28,520 --> 01:17:30,420 Oh, I'm sorry, Rick. This is Louise. 945 01:17:30,700 --> 01:17:31,700 Hi, how are you? 946 01:17:31,720 --> 01:17:32,699 I'm Mark. 947 01:17:32,700 --> 01:17:35,540 Hi, how are you? I'm going to get some drinks and a table for us. 948 01:17:35,780 --> 01:17:36,780 Excuse me. 949 01:17:37,420 --> 01:17:39,740 You are coming to the wedding? 950 01:17:40,880 --> 01:17:41,880 What wedding? 951 01:17:41,900 --> 01:17:46,120 We did it. Mark and I left our orders. I'm going back to St. John's to make the 952 01:17:46,120 --> 01:17:47,760 arrangements. We just couldn't live like that anymore. 953 01:17:49,080 --> 01:17:50,380 Congratulations. That's wonderful. 954 01:17:50,840 --> 01:17:51,860 Congratulations, Mark. 955 01:17:52,620 --> 01:17:53,620 We'll win soon. 956 01:17:54,270 --> 01:17:57,570 Wait, I'll write it all out for you. You've got to be there. Of course. Are 957 01:17:57,570 --> 01:17:59,250 kidding? She's so happy. 958 01:17:59,490 --> 01:18:01,330 And Tim, Tim's going to do the service. 959 01:18:05,110 --> 01:18:06,110 What a perfect choice. 960 01:18:11,050 --> 01:18:15,910 Well, how are you? 961 01:18:17,550 --> 01:18:18,550 I'm fine. 962 01:18:19,550 --> 01:18:22,910 I'm starting a washburn -type program up in the Bronx. 963 01:18:27,280 --> 01:18:28,280 That's terrific. 964 01:18:28,700 --> 01:18:29,820 Here's the address and date. 965 01:18:30,380 --> 01:18:31,279 See you there. 966 01:18:31,280 --> 01:18:32,540 Much happiness. Thanks. 967 01:18:36,200 --> 01:18:37,200 Hi. 968 01:18:37,660 --> 01:18:43,620 We can get a booth if we wait a little bit. Oh, Rick, this is Father Tim, an 969 01:18:43,620 --> 01:18:44,620 friend of mine. 970 01:18:44,860 --> 01:18:45,739 Rick Hamilton. 971 01:18:45,740 --> 01:18:47,200 Pleasure to meet you, Father Tim. Hi. 972 01:18:54,740 --> 01:18:55,940 Well, I guess I... 973 01:18:57,120 --> 01:18:58,120 You're going. 974 01:19:01,700 --> 01:19:03,080 Hi. Rick. 975 01:19:03,840 --> 01:19:04,840 Nice meeting you. 976 01:19:07,460 --> 01:19:09,340 Donna and Mark are getting married. I heard. 977 01:19:09,960 --> 01:19:10,960 That's great. 978 01:19:11,760 --> 01:19:12,760 You want to get a seat? 979 01:19:13,760 --> 01:19:14,599 Well, 980 01:19:14,600 --> 01:19:21,260 you certainly 981 01:19:21,260 --> 01:19:22,600 didn't talk much during dinner. 982 01:19:23,120 --> 01:19:24,420 No, I wasn't very hungry. 983 01:19:26,210 --> 01:19:28,630 I didn't say you didn't eat. I said you didn't talk. 984 01:19:30,690 --> 01:19:31,690 What do you want me to say? 985 01:19:33,030 --> 01:19:34,350 Well, why not start with the truth? 986 01:19:37,130 --> 01:19:38,150 What are you talking about? 987 01:19:39,130 --> 01:19:40,630 That guy in there, Father Tim? 988 01:19:42,670 --> 01:19:43,670 Yeah. 989 01:19:44,530 --> 01:19:46,050 He's the one that signed your books, right? 990 01:19:47,850 --> 01:19:48,850 Right. 991 01:19:49,810 --> 01:19:51,190 Well, were you in love with him or what? 992 01:19:53,050 --> 01:19:54,050 It wasn't like that. 993 01:19:54,490 --> 01:19:57,730 Well, what was it like? Oh, come on. What is this? My life's history? Can we 994 01:19:57,730 --> 01:19:59,170 just change the subject, please? No. 995 01:19:59,450 --> 01:20:00,450 Damn it. 996 01:20:01,310 --> 01:20:04,750 Mary, I want you to stop running and take a look at yourself. 997 01:20:06,230 --> 01:20:09,270 No, no, no. Don't look down. Look at me, Mary, and confront this. 998 01:20:11,050 --> 01:20:14,250 Since we've been together, I've sensed that there's been something going on. 999 01:20:14,790 --> 01:20:15,790 I don't know. 1000 01:20:16,490 --> 01:20:17,490 Underneath. 1001 01:20:17,810 --> 01:20:19,930 At first, I thought it was all this religious stuff. 1002 01:20:21,290 --> 01:20:24,550 Were you trying to go out and make a new life for yourself? I don't know. 1003 01:20:26,030 --> 01:20:28,150 I saw your face when we were in there with him. 1004 01:20:33,650 --> 01:20:35,350 Hey, Mary. 1005 01:20:36,990 --> 01:20:39,870 We're not just lovers. We're good friends, too, right? 1006 01:20:43,450 --> 01:20:44,450 Rick. 1007 01:20:53,550 --> 01:20:54,550 Save the world. 1008 01:20:56,230 --> 01:20:57,230 Educate children. 1009 01:20:58,850 --> 01:20:59,850 Spread love. 1010 01:21:01,810 --> 01:21:02,810 What happened? 1011 01:21:05,590 --> 01:21:07,230 She was still doing it, and I left. 1012 01:21:10,790 --> 01:21:12,190 And got involved with me. 1013 01:21:13,090 --> 01:21:14,650 Having fun and sex. 1014 01:21:20,810 --> 01:21:22,230 You said no hang -ups. 1015 01:21:22,800 --> 01:21:23,820 Nothing left over. 1016 01:21:24,320 --> 01:21:25,600 It's not that simple. 1017 01:21:29,980 --> 01:21:36,940 When Donna told me that... Everything came 1018 01:21:36,940 --> 01:21:37,940 back. 1019 01:21:42,300 --> 01:21:46,460 I just don't think that I can go and watch that wedding. 1020 01:21:58,410 --> 01:22:00,070 It's just too late for me to change the subject. 1021 01:22:19,390 --> 01:22:22,290 I always thought I was one of God's faithful. 1022 01:22:22,910 --> 01:22:25,350 That when others failed, I'd remain. 1023 01:22:26,570 --> 01:22:29,650 I went back to the one place where I thought I could find an answer. 1024 01:22:31,310 --> 01:22:32,370 Mary, think back. 1025 01:22:32,930 --> 01:22:35,430 Remember how you struggled with your vows and your feelings? 1026 01:22:36,830 --> 01:22:37,830 Yeah, I know. 1027 01:22:38,350 --> 01:22:40,070 I see it with the kids I work with. 1028 01:22:40,550 --> 01:22:44,470 They rebel, strike out, hurt what they love most. 1029 01:22:45,330 --> 01:22:48,590 A lot of times they want to be stopped and pulled back. 1030 01:22:49,250 --> 01:22:51,550 Have someone show them they're loved in spite of it. 1031 01:22:53,290 --> 01:22:55,130 Is that why you're here? You want us to pull you back? 1032 01:22:55,430 --> 01:22:56,590 No, I don't know. 1033 01:22:58,190 --> 01:23:01,070 Was I just testing to see how much love I could count on? 1034 01:23:02,170 --> 01:23:04,510 Sounds more like a severe attack of guilt to me. 1035 01:23:06,490 --> 01:23:09,130 I just want to be sure I didn't leave for the wrong reasons. 1036 01:23:10,610 --> 01:23:11,910 Then examine your heart. 1037 01:23:12,970 --> 01:23:15,370 See us clearly without any false sentiment. 1038 01:23:16,470 --> 01:23:17,470 We've made mistakes. 1039 01:23:18,070 --> 01:23:21,350 We have a lot to undo, a lot to learn about joy and pleasure. 1040 01:23:22,730 --> 01:23:24,170 We don't want your guilt. 1041 01:23:25,190 --> 01:23:26,870 They might even want your help someday. 1042 01:23:28,270 --> 01:23:30,270 I really did believe I had the calling. 1043 01:23:31,370 --> 01:23:32,870 He's still calling, Mary. 1044 01:23:33,870 --> 01:23:37,990 Maybe he just called you here for a little while and gave you what he 1045 01:24:02,540 --> 01:24:06,120 Take this ring as a sign of my love and fidelity. 1046 01:24:06,660 --> 01:24:11,340 In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. 1047 01:24:11,920 --> 01:24:12,920 Amen. 1048 01:24:35,770 --> 01:24:37,130 I was afraid you wouldn't come. 1049 01:24:39,790 --> 01:24:42,110 Bart. I called, but I couldn't reach you. 1050 01:24:44,690 --> 01:24:45,690 I went back to St. 1051 01:24:46,230 --> 01:24:47,230 Raphael's. 1052 01:24:48,790 --> 01:24:49,790 Why? 1053 01:24:51,930 --> 01:24:52,930 I was angry. 1054 01:24:54,690 --> 01:24:55,690 Hurt. 1055 01:24:56,770 --> 01:25:01,970 When Donna told me that night, I couldn't help. 1056 01:25:02,280 --> 01:25:03,320 thinking that it should be us. 1057 01:25:05,220 --> 01:25:09,800 So I thought that I just couldn't watch you marry them. 1058 01:25:11,000 --> 01:25:12,000 But you did. 1059 01:25:15,200 --> 01:25:16,200 I did. 1060 01:25:21,100 --> 01:25:23,540 I have thought a lot about what you said that day. 1061 01:25:28,460 --> 01:25:29,460 And you were right. 1062 01:25:32,560 --> 01:25:33,560 I do hide. 1063 01:25:35,460 --> 01:25:36,700 And I am afraid. 1064 01:25:38,100 --> 01:25:39,980 And I am trying to change that. 1065 01:25:42,720 --> 01:25:43,720 As a priest. 1066 01:25:48,080 --> 01:25:54,660 And I am so grateful for my feelings for you. 1067 01:26:00,330 --> 01:26:02,030 I can't imagine being without them. 1068 01:26:06,250 --> 01:26:07,330 You did love me. 1069 01:26:09,710 --> 01:26:11,310 How could I not love you? 1070 01:26:20,130 --> 01:26:23,890 You know, if these were the old days, I'd ask for a blessing. 1071 01:26:25,710 --> 01:26:27,330 Well, they're not the old days. 1072 01:26:32,750 --> 01:26:33,830 What about you blessing me? 1073 01:26:54,970 --> 01:26:57,530 I never saw Tim again. 1074 01:26:58,510 --> 01:27:03,100 Soon after Mark and Donna's wedding, I moved to California to continue my work 1075 01:27:03,100 --> 01:27:04,100 as a psychologist. 1076 01:27:05,980 --> 01:27:07,320 There I met my husband. 1077 01:27:08,240 --> 01:27:12,360 In 1970, we were married in the chapel when my mother and grandmother had been 1078 01:27:12,360 --> 01:27:13,360 married. 1079 01:27:14,380 --> 01:27:15,940 We now have two children. 1080 01:27:17,700 --> 01:27:23,260 And when my kids ask about faith in God, I tell them simply that it means loving 1081 01:27:23,260 --> 01:27:24,320 the best way we can.